after baby is gone, i find my life not interesting anymore. there aren't laughter and craziness anymore. there aren't disturbings already. though it may frustrate me sometimes, but i rather to have her by my side disturbing me. i miss her a lot now. wonder if she will be alright over there without me by her side taking care of her. she is clumsy and careless, she needs me by her side reminding her this and that, preventing her from falling down or hitting something. i really don't regret always taking care of her, preventing her fall. i don't mind doing it forever too..